Getting worse. I weighed myself Friday.

Not going to post it on here.

But it was spring break and I'm having feminine issues.

So it doesn't count, right? =/

... I need a beer.

Not doing well.

I'm still at 243.

I drink too much.

Well, this week has taken a rather large toll on me emotionally. I've been having some relationship problems, but for the most part things seem to be patched up.


I didn't weigh myself last Friday, because I knew my weight would be off due to the fact of that monthly thing, but also due to the fact that I was positive I had an off week.

I weighed myself tonight because I was in a good mood, and now I'm in an even better mood. I don't know what the heck I did, but I lost some weight!

I weighed myself and I weighed 225.3 lbs !!!

I thought my scale was broken, because at first it said I lost two pounds, then I stepped on it again and then it said I lost 6 pounds, and then I stepped on it again and it said I gained like .5 pounds, so I got fed up and used the scale in the bathroom. I'm upset, too, because this damned thing cost me 30 bucks.

I hope I can keep this up- I think most of this lost weight is probably water since I've been drinking like nobodies business this week. I've been having a LOT of tea, and been eating a lot less dairy.

More and more I'm starting to think that I'm allergic to dairy :[

That would so totally suck.

Anyway, today I had a white chocolate chip hersheys candy bar. that is my favorite candy. I also had a fancy cappuccino from 7-11.

Oh well, I can eat whatever I want! Cuz I'm not on a diet. :D
I like this frame of mind.

Yesterday I had some scrambled eggs, hash browns, a glass of chocolate milk, a piece of french toast with syrup, and a bowl of POPS. Yums. ^_^

Lunch was a cheese and bean burrito.

Dinner was a bit of nasty mac and cheese, cottage cheese, a veggie burger with french fries and a glass of regular and a glass of chocolate milk.

Today was a goober grape sandwich, 2 glasses of Pepsi MAX, 3 slices of pizza, 2 bowls of bread pudding (one with ice cream on it), 1 white chocolate macadamia nut cookie and a glass of water.

I feel ill. 242.6

Yesterday was sorta fun. Rode my bike to classes, my friend's house and back, etc. But I'm more sunburnt. =/

Breakfast was 4 whole wheat blueberry Eggo's with sweet cream.

Lunch/dinner was veggie chili with cheese and saltines, a slice of margarita pizza, and a small bowl of ice cream with chocolate chips, sprinkles, a chocolate chip cookie and a small piece of a cream cheese brownie. I was so stuffed that I couldn't bring myself to eat anything after that.

Not sure what I want to eat for today. I'm thinking of going to the union for some eggs, hash browns, biscuits and gravy and maybe some french toast, too... =/ The thought makes me feel constipated and yet hungry. lol So weird.

Settling on a bowl of cereal and some V8 juice.

UPDATE:

Ended up just a bowl of Rice Chex + Frosted Mini Wheats.

Didn't eat again until almost 4 p.m. and I binged because I was so hungry. X(

Bean+cheese burrito

Huge bowl of chocolate chip bread pudding

Small bowl vanilla ice cream with sprinkles+chocolate chips

1/2 grilled cheese

Cup of french fries

Spinach pizza minus crust

Couple of bites of nasty breadsticks

I've had a hideous headache all day. And then my neighbors woke me up mid-nap being loud and obnoxious whores. =(

I've been blasting music for an hour and a half. I think they've either left or settled down.

Hopefully the latter, because I'm so tired that every time I blink I have major troubles opening my eyes back up. =/

Also, I cheated with my weighing. And it said 241.8... dunno if that's because I'd just eaten breakfast, but I tried to convince myself it's muscle mass. =( Doubtful.

Turns out I got sunburned on my face and I had trouble sleeping all night. LOL

Also. Yesterday I ate Rice Chex with low fat milk, a veggie sloppy joe, cottage cheese, regular bread pudding with whipped cream and an ice cream sundae with Oreos, a chocolate chip cookie, M&M's, chocolate chips, and sprinkles. Yummy. lol Dinner was a veggie burger with a glass of red wine.

And I woke up unable to move my left leg very easily. Apparently riding my bike really worked out that muscle and it decided it no longer wanted to work. Ever. lol Made for an interesting walk to work. =)

I'm doing better. I'm eating fruit at least once a day which is way more than I was eating before.

I'm drinking loads more water. But, then again, 1 teaspoon is more than none. lol

I'm exercising a bit more. I went for a walk with my friend and her roommates' dogs.

Today I rode my bike around campus and wore myself out. lol

AND I got 100% on my German oral final. ^_^ It made me very happy.

And Garnier Fructis is doing some sort of American Idol promotion on campus.

There were people doing karaoke outside of the union. lols

My friend and I sat on the lawn and danced around to some of them.

Overall today was a very fun day. ^_^

yayaya

Well, I'm really into it this week!

Maybe not so much with the food bit, but the exercising.

Yesterday I decided that I need to keep my heart rate at 155-170 while working out, so I can get the most out of the actual work out experience. I kept it there for around 7 minutes yesterday, but it was only towards the end when I got tired.

The burning and the hurting don't bother me. It makes me go faster.

But the tiredness makes me want to stop. Like, I'll start yawning.

I have asthma, so every time I work out I need the inhaler like three times. I tried to go without it yesterday, and only had to use it once.

In a few minutes I'm going to go on the bike and try and keep my heart rate up for at least the recommended 12 minutes.

Today I had coffee, toast, and a banana. I might have a salad for lunch. Dad bought croutons, which will be the death of me. He also bought almonds, because he noticed that someone was eating all of the almonds out of the trail mix. LOLOL. Oops.

Anyhow, I decided to weigh myself on Friday's from now on. So I have till Friday, and I'm hoping I lost at least two pounds this week. I need to see some results, meng!

It's too early.

Nobody should be up right now. And yet here I am. Stupid work.

I had an orange and some water.

What a feeling...

Breakfast:

Rice Chex

Low fat milk

Lunch:

Refried beans

Brown rice

A few bites of a nasty veggie wrap

Cottage cheese

Pears

Strawberry rhubarb bread pudding

Dinner:

Veggie burger (on wheat)

2 whole wheat blueberry eggos (+butter)

glass of red wine

The beautiful weather this past week has made me hopeful and happy.

I did some much needed cleaning and clearing out of things.

While I'm coming to terms with things that I need to get rid of and keep and whatnot, I'm ignoring my homework and classes a bit too much.

My Spanish test went badly. =/ But I'm not sure I care too terribly much, although I need to get a decent GPA this semester otherwise I'll not be able to go to Luxembourg next fall... Gr Spanish the language of the devil!!!!

... lol just kidding.

I'm going to Las Vegas for spring break. I'm very excited. XD

Kudos!

Cassie you're so smart! =) Muchos kudos to you!

Also, I'm making a second post today because I realized something sort of great.

If I can lose 2-3 pounds a week--consistently--until the end of August, then I'll reach a healthy comfortable weight for my height and bone structure.

This excites me because it's really not a whole lot that I'll have to lose each week, and for a bit longer it'll just be based on changing my diet--fairly easy. Once I've lost 20 lbs, perhaps I'll be more comfortable with my body so I can start going to the gym downstairs... because I feel like such a bum that there is a gym downstairs and I don't go... =/

It's Cassie!

I figured out how to post on here from my primary blog. So I changed everything to where Jess can post with her own name instead of putting it in the title! ahaha. Makes everything a tad easier.

Anyway, these past two days have been weird. I'm conscious of what I eat, and I try to gauge how hungry I am, but no matter what, I still seem to eat. I just think I get bored and don't know what to do- which has been a lifelong habit. It's hard to break.

But today I haven't eaten that much, and I even spent 30 minutes doing vigorous exercise on my indoor spin-bike. It was great. I actually like exercising, I just don't know why I don't do it as often as I should.

I bought new sneakers yesterday as well, which makes the exercising a lot more enjoyable. I remember when I'd just use the bike in my socks and my feet would hurt like craaazy. Now it actually feels good.

I'd really, for now, like to focus on my stomach, thighs, and arms. I don't really know any other spots I could possibly want to work on, but I really just want to find a miracle exercise/stretch that will get rid of my belly.

I remember for years I would say, "Well, I may be a bit fat, but at least my belly isn't monstrous."
These past few months, all the extra weight I've gained(around 40 pounds!! in like 6 months!!) seemed to scoot moreso onto my legs, and even more onto my tummy. So now I feel a new form of embarrassment and self-consciousness when I try on shirts and certain types of pants that I've never had before. It's such an awful feeling.

So I guess the thing I want to work on the most would be my tummy. I just want to find some awesome routine I can get into that's not uncomfortable and painful for my butt and my back(IE: crunches/situps). I know there must be an alternative. Time for Google, I guess!

Overall, I just want to feel healthy. Which is what I felt the first week and a half. I need to get back on track, it feels good to put healthy things in my body.
:]

Wha-wha-what Jessica?

Well I guess I'm not doing too bad, actually.

Today's weight: 238 lbs

I gotta say that I'm pretty proud of myself? I dunno. I really felt like this was a shit week, but oh well.

Spring Break plans are finalized. My boyfriend's flying out here then we're driving to Vegas for a couple of days. XD Super excited!

I haven't much else to write about, really.

OH! Yesterday and today's foods! Duh.

Yesterday:

1 slice French toast

1 scrambled egg

1 veggie burger + french fries

1 white chocolate macadamia nut cookie

Ridiculously oversized bowl of farina+6 slices of bread (definitely ashamed of that)

2 glasses of wine

Today:

1 bowl Rice Chex + low fat milk

1 veggie burger

2 Eggo's with butter

1 glass V8 VFusion juice

I may just have pizza for dinner. =/

So much for a diet. Surprisingly, though, I feel like I am doing better with portions. LOL Sort of... well, a tiny bit better at least.